Hello everyone! Whether your a viewer from my obscure youtube page or a first time reader I would like to thank you for your time. I am attempting to rekindle myself with this blog, as it got limited activity it gave me little motivation. However, I see the muse may have shown its face again and I may have some to write about that can be read and discussed.
First off, let me reintroduce myself and what I am all about. My name is FreeFromAntics, what that means is free from the influence of bullshit. I am an Army veteran and dealt with a lot of bullshit there. I grew up the bullied kid, with a long road milestones for moving, and grew up free of the social bullshit (to an extent of course). And since separating from the Army have been free of a lot more bullshit.
Allow me to, secondly, familiarize everyone with what I consider bullshit. The bullshit that I can name easiest is the personal avoidance of everything that many people integrated into their lives. This being avoiding the truth or facts and presenting yourself as a lie.
For example, a friend of mine in the Army was a bit of a popular character. He was enjoyable to be around, kind enough, big and dumb but cool enough you wanted to spend time with. I was the guy with the car, he was the guy without a license, and we both liked enjoying our time off. We would hang out after work with a beer and movies, like many of us did during the week as single soldiers with nothing to do. We would relate stories while we worked, getting to know one another to an extent. After awhile I thought I knew this guy, but turns out after getting out of the Army the truth is a little different. I was able to find out from his ex girlfriend (my current friend) that he talked a lot of shit behind my back.
That is one case of the many, in fact there were several occasions similar to this all through my history. I never understood it until recently, but now I am able to piece much back together....such bullshit.
Its this kind of bullshit I actually have very limited off in my life. however in its place is the economic and government bullshit that we all have to deal with. And I suppose that is my third point, I am just tired of things being so crappy. I would like to believe that things are improving, but honestly I have not seen it personally. Still my wife and I are out of work, our efforts turning up enough temp agencies that never call and no replies, which is the norm. I would rather continue school and get my degree than find work, but as expenses go up and what little income we have goes down what other choices do I have. I self employ but with no capital in hand being the reason to seek this pursuit makes it difficult to have a return investment.
Whatever the reason, bullshit is there and it is something I like to stay free from. I enjoy the discussion that is life and our civilization, however I feel we are suffering as a people and a new awareness is needed. As a social outsider most of my life, I would love nothing more than to feel more apart of a community, but everywhere I live I have seen little of it.
Monday, August 6, 2012
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Goodbye 2011, hello new life. This year has been busy but at the same time so boring. School was the main priority, as a veteran school keeps the bills paid and food in our bellies so I didn't have to work much. My own business was able to generate a little money this year, but I don't think the market in Tucson has much use for me.
Time to get 2012 ready. A daily routine schedule, more planned activities with my son, and a keener eye on my finances. It is time to increase the wealth and decrease the debt! I will have to increase the frequency I post, and the content I post about, maybe this will help me stay on track.
Here's to a great year, both ending and beginning!
Monday, April 12, 2010
I haven't blogged for awhile, I haven't really had much to say, but I think I can throw some thoughts out there tonight.
I have been thinking about god, religion, science, and all the stuff surrounding it a lot lately, and I have started to have some revelations. I can start from the beginning and work more into it so I will try to keep it simple for now. All of the following are personal thoughts, opinions, and beliefs. I have not read any books on the subjects, besides the Bible, and my thoughts derive from articles I have read, being raised Catholic, and just figuring out things myself.
The Big Bang, theory, isn't taken into consideration in religion, but I have found a source for it. Before the BB there was nothing, or as far as we know it, but when it happened and the universe was created and it released such a powerful force of energy and it is this energy that man became attached. An energy that is everything, it is the air we breathe, the water we drink, the very essence of ourselves is apart of this energy. Religious would feel and call this energy God. Science would call this in many terms of energy in the universe.
This energy does not have a hold or person interest in mankind, but it is there and is apart of us. This energy is the absolute form of evolution, it is the point of perfect ascension that all life should thrive to evolve to. When you pray, or meditate, or however you feel you personally can connect with the energy, you can will it to be apart of your life.
For example, a man prays to his god to save his wife from cancer. He is so devoted that he spends day and night praying to God for help. A miracle happens and his wife gets better, the man then prays a thank you to God for saving her life. This is the energy, this is man reaching out with his mind to the energy and using pure will to pull the energy into his life for a miracle. It seems confusing, but it is fairly simple.
The energy is not a cognitive being, it is intelligence at a level incomprehensible to man, that may seem frightening or wrong to some people but I have a reason for it. There is strong evidence supporting evolution, this evidence also points that evolution is not and never will be over. Man has seen forms of evolution but has not really noticed it as such, but I have. There are people who are mentally superior to others, who have abilities mentally that others do not, that are physically more capable than others, than are better fit for making babies than others...all this is signs of nature strengths and weaknesses.
Obesity is a problem in America, but the body is capable of being fit, strong, fast, and far superior to an obese body (this is not meant as an offense to anyone). Man can easily achieve a physical superiority over other men, proof is in sports and athletics, there are people who are just strong and just fit (with or without constant exercise), that is the evolution happening...the better the genes the better the later genes and good genetics drives good genetics, millions of years those good genes lead the way in mans evolution.
Mentally it is proven that we only use portions of our brain power, some people are dramatically more intelligent than others, some people are natural at studying and soaking in knowledge while others struggle. That is evolution. Higher intelligence can aid in realization of the bigger picture, the full extent of things instead of a small, in the box view of life like most people have. Intelligence will improve and with it mental capacity, and with that the powers and abilities that the mind has to offer.
Movies and TV show people with special powers all the time, it is nothing new, but what is interesting is that people really do wish they had those powers. Now imagine spending your entire life devoted to 1 thing, say you spend 8 hours a day meditating and learning to control your mind, late in life you are at a level of cognizance that you truly believe you can commune with the dead, or someone else mentally, or do things mentally...monks know this, and they lead the way in evolution and have for generations.
There is so much more to all of this, it just takes a little bit of an open mind to see things bigger than they are and see past things and into others. I am not trying to start a religion or a new science theory, I am merely getting ideas out that combine the 2 and may just find a common and inspirational middle.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
I have had the same frames for my glasses and the same prescription for a long time. Actually the lens' have been replaced but are chipped again, the frame was expensive at $170 and has been worn down and doesn't completely keep one lens in. I have been looking at glasses passively because I do need a new pair but they are out of my price range.
Through my searches for something I could afford I found Zenni Optical which offered prices I could finally afford. I had come across an article by an Examiner author Eric Hammer who talked about Zenni Optical. They start their prices as low as $8 and don't move out too far from good prices. Anti-glaring as an extra is only $4.95 as opposed to the $50 you may pay, I know I paid $75 for mine).
So I am pleased with my new glasses, they are comfortable and I don't worry about my lens falling out. I highly recommend Zenni Optical. I would like to know from readers what they have had to go through with optical problems. It is one of those things, you have glasses and if you can't pay for new ones then you just wear the same old pairs longer than is healthy. My brother, in fact, has been using my mothers old pair for I think 4 years now, and they are not the same prescription.
Monday, March 22, 2010
My wife and I have a date night together every once in a while, just the 2 of us and always special. For one night I planned everything out from the dinner that I made to our night alone together, which doesn't happen often. I picked up some massage oil from Green Dragon Herbals to give some flavor to a massage. The massage oil was flavored with peppermint, something else that added a little to the fun, it came off a lot different than it went on. It wasn't irritating, it wasn't too much oil, it was safe, and it smelled so very good.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
I had an interview not too long ago for a security officer position with a firm that operates in 30 countries and is locally used widely for county security. I was able to secure a position, did the training and am now awaiting my state issued guard card. After that I will be issued uniforms and a post. So finally I have a job, I won't be making as much as I am on unemployment but at least it is a job. I still have 2 weeks before I will even know when I start, but thats fine it gives me time to prepare.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
This isn't exactly what I expected when I started flipping through pics of celebrities, and it didn't immediately stand out either. It took me a few seconds before I noticed it, but there it is in the red circle. It is more clear than several of the other shots of her "cameltoe" and I think this one is much more defined.
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